ok guys today was a piece of shit

i got yelled at for not real reason
just cuz i when to my friend estebon's house and i didn't text my mom telling her i was going

FYI i live in a apartment building he is right down the hall

so yeah
i get that she gets worried that im not home and she doesn't know where i was

its just that when she called all pissed i was on my way down the hall with estebon
so yeah if i left his house earlier i wouldn't of got in any trouble

but was pissed and hurt my feelings is that my mom was pretty much calling me worthless and shit in her room to lester (her bf that lives wit us)
and well even though estebon was playing the game i could still hear her i didn't know if he could hear her but i could that was one thing that really pissed me off

and then lester made me go talk to him in my room and he was saying i need to be a maid basically and that i need to learn how to clean up behind myself cuz my room is always mess

WHAT THE FUCK FIRST OF ALL THE ONLY REASON MY ROOM IS MESSY IS BECAUSE I NEED TO FIND STUFF AND NOT TO MENTION I HAVE TO FIND MY CLOTHES FOR SCHOOL!!!

i wash on Sundays and sometimes its last minute and i keep all my clothes in the basket so yeah i end up throwing stuff all over the place to find what i need sometimes and i get so tired after school i just go to sleep

so what can you expect

but back to the point every time i tried to explain myself he'd automatically say I'm wrong

it was basically like no one was listening to me

not to mention all that was going on i just feel horrible

it's just i get emotional when people talk like i'm the problem like if i was dead everything would be better

idk i think im just being overly-emo
overly-emotional not the fad emo

hell it might be the same thing if something causes you to start thing suicidal thoughts i think that would still be emo right

well im not gonna hurt myself my mom's gonna hurt me anyway so whats the point right

plus my saying always calms me down

"what if you kill your self and tomarrow was bringing you true happiness"™ (2009 BI)

so again i am not gonna hurt myself that would be stupid so yeah don't go freaking out K

Dudes I had the weirdest dream about a guy I have feelings for!

And it's such a scary embarrassing dream I can't tell youz ppl but it was bad!

I had to talk to like all my friends and get help Woo man I'm still confused and stuff
so...

Idk homes

my emotions are now in a bunch!

I shell go to the con but one of my closet buddies can't go because my mom doesn't like em I hate it
it's like saying that just because a person is a certain way their not allowed to be your friend.

so now I'm a little depressed but at least the con is still a go >.> I guess
not to mention my mom basically cursed me out for not good reason not letting me say one word and called me gay.

it felt like I really didn't matter to her.

so yeah... not so excited anymore TT^TT

[am not gay by the way]

OMFG I might be going to ACen 09
I'm so excited!
it'll be my first anime con!
>< I'm so proud

but no I will not be doing any work there
I'm just going there to sight see talk to my favorite voice acters and get food><